Mommy Burnout

I have been putting off this post even though its been running around in my brain for about a week. Why? Because I am afraid to share sometimes what is going on in my life. I am afraid to show that I don’t have it all together and under control. I am afraid that I will scare someone off or make someone not want to have kids…. But if I want to be honest I need to write this post! Not only because I want to get it out in the open but because I know that I am not the only mommy who feels burnt out!
I have had a rough past couple of weeks! Now if you were looking in from the outside they haven’t looked that bad. in fact I am sure they looked pretty good and even my kids might tell you they have been good.

But the truth is for me, they have been hard.

I have been struggling being a mommy to my three, three and under.

I love my children and I want to be their mommy but I feel like I have reached the end of a semester and I just don’t have or don’t want to give any more. Which is hard seeing as motherhood doesn’t have semesters. I can’t just take a semester off and come back fresh and ready.

What has lead to this mommy burn out for me?

Well its the fact that I struggle every day with my three year old daughter. She is one tough cookie to work with! I have shared about my struggles with her in the past and I have to say that even with all the stuff I have learned about training/loving her she is still more then I want to handle some days. Its hard because I feel like there is not much out there for moms like me who have kids who are ten times harder then most kids. In fact I often feel alone with her because though people tell me they have a rough kid when they tell me about them Samantha seems ten times worse then them. She definitely got both of her mommy and daddy!

Another reason is I now have an almost two year old that is reaching the same point that Samantha is where he is pushing every boundary and questioning everything that I say. If I had known before that I wouldn’t like this age (in fact I hate this age!) I probably would have made sure we had our kids further apart. I can sort of handle one but to have two….

Also my easy baby can sometimes be not so easy. He has been pretty insistent about wanting to be held all the time or at least wanting attention. This has been hard with having two others who need constant discipline and attention. He is also still getting up at night and though I usually love those times lately I haven’t been enjoying them much because it means more time of taking care of a kid.

Now that you have read my downer of a post here is my question:

Have you dealt with mommy burnout and if so what helped you get past it?

I will come come back to this issue soon I hope with some answers on what helped me get past. And don’t worry I am not planning on doing anything drastic about this problem and I might even be over it next week lol.